Apprentice

Sorry about the recent silence. I am still here, I just have a hermeneutics assignment I need to get finished. It needs to be done but I don’t mind at all, I love this stuff!

I’m doing ok, although things have kind of gotten out of control. Here’s how it goes:

1. Work depresses me
2. Depression for me goes hand in hand with insomnia (always has)
3. When I wake up I stay in bed too long (because I dread going to work and/or am too tired) and sacrifice proper morning quiet time with God.
4. This depresses me.
5. GOTO 1

I’m taking steps to reign this in. I’m getting rid of my old desktop computer, which I haven’t used in ages and setting up the desk as a study area in my room. This should help me be more productive, which should combat the depression. It’s funny – depression makes me waste time, which makes me depressed – discipline should help me get back on track. Of course I need prayer too.

For those of you who have known me for a while you may think that this depression is worse than it actually is. You may have seen me at my lowest when the depression had really taken hold. However, as I have grown in faith I’ve grown in hope. In know now that I need nothing but God and God will never leave me. I used to feel utterly consumed and overwhelmed with the depression but now it feels like some alien thing that I’m aware of, and don’t like, but is ultimately powerless. The depression has gone from being a crippling disease to a bothersome rash. I’ll be fine, thank God.